Once a year I get the chance
To wish you birthday cheer.
It pleases me no end to say,
I wish you another great year.

So happy 18th birthday to you , Elleene,
From the bottom of my heart.
And may your good times multiply,
Till they’re flying off the chart!

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hahahaha..... jobless people like us like to convoy people`s status... hahaha

just a short random post

AFTER SHOCK !! I'm addicted drinking it !! hahahaa Liquor tu !! don play play...
the other was having a small BBQ gathering at my place... I invited Desmond, Edison and Jian win over. Was organized by my bro tho, coz most of his frens gonna leave brunei for UK sudah.. so yea... BBQ lor.....

NEW BAJUssss !! YEapppie !!

SINJANG KU BARU ! hahahahaa

Jobless

Emo? I think so...

Even though I tried to act cool, my efforts were futile.
I thought I should just avoid it.
I realized that I had to change something.
Always running away is so lame.
I'm tired of these many lonely nights.
If you just realized it now it means you're not up to the standard yet!

Have You Ever felt like you lost your purpose in life?

I feel that everyone has a purpose in life, like who they are or what they want to do. I thought I had mine figured out but recently things have changed and I feel lost. Misunderstanding between us getting more serious. Walls are getting thicker and then I still make believe that I am feeling better.

I don't want to know
I don't want to feel
I don't want to be
I don't want to sound crazy
I don't want to sound insane

Forcing myself to study so that I can make myself not to think about it? Good Idea? Hump..
But I can't take the pressure.Have you ever felt the same?Like you just need to run away

Some years ago I used to appreciate everything that is around me, no matter how shitty my life had been, everything amused me so easily, you may say that I am kinda shallow at that time but I really don't care. Strange, how things changed in such a short period of time. Maybe my aspects in life had changed, maybe my outlook in life wasn't the same, whatever it is, I'm not sure what it is and I don't get it!

Whenever I look around me I don't feel amuse anymore, things are just plain DEAD to me now and I rarely laugh or smile or even grin. I think I'm going nuts.Oh well, I guess that's part of growing up, right? Or maybe not. You know when people changed and you weren't aware of it, it's so difficult to catch up and I think that's whats happening to me right now. Everyone changed except me but how the hell should I know if they're the one who changed me or I changed them? I guess everybody's changing for some reason...time - changes people's heart and it WILL change even the closest best friend of yours. One moment they love you then the next they don't really care. You will wonder what the hell just happened? The saddest part is when nobody dares to answer your question because they're too busy with their own lives to even remember who the fuck you are to them.

I feel exactly the same as most of you people do, We, who suffers the same cruel fate. I guess time has something to do with it, I guess fate was responsible for it but whatever it is, it just doesn't feel so right and to be quite honest, it hurts like hell. I know I can carry on... believe me I can move on but there are times where you can't avoid to remember the things that were once your life, your memory... and I guess that's the bitterness of "changing"and I know the fact that no one stays the same. Time can heal but time cannot repair what is already broken. Trust me, the scars won't go away and whenever you reminisce about the past, try to remember that even though there are tears and sorrow, there's still once were laughter and love. But I'm willing to forget about the scar. That's enough for me to hold on to... being love and hate was enough for me. At least I made a big impact on someone else's life and that's enough for me. Who am I to them? If they look back... they will remember me this way. I've always been this way and I guess... I didn't change that much.

Maybe guys nowadays are getting sissy and sissier than 20 years ago. Like What DJ Izan had said the other day. Guys want others to understanding their feeling? Hahaaaa....

when the heavy journey's done, I'll rest my weary head.For the world and it's colours will be mine

Carry on till tomorow, there's no reason to look back Carry on, carry on, carry on !!
FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS ON LIFE !! Yeapppieee Yapppppy Yahuuuuuuuuuu

Oh man !! On 27th Aug, I thought I would have 4 days to revise for my chemistry paper 5, and I'm happy for that but then I don't make use of it. I spent in on outing and doing unnecessary things. Always like that one I dont know why. Who to blame? blame myself.

When I was young time didn't enter my mind but now that I've grown old,time passes so fast! sadly I have begun to realize.Most of my earth life is behind. My friend Rahman is leaving soon. Though he had came back to Brunei about 3 weeks ago, but then it feels like just yesterday and leaving the next day. I feel very sorry to him, as most of us could not accompany him going around chilling, playing and what-so-ever. Due to the exam most people facing. I knew him earlier through games but we never talk to each other as we are not that close. but I'm much more closer with his twins brother(Rahim) and when Rahman came back, his the one actually started a conversation with me and I found out he's such a funny and funky guy. But overall it's fun to have such a good friend. hahaha.

Rahman the Kambeeeng, if you happen to read my blog, I'm gonna tell you something here. Hahaha I asked you what things you like right the other day? and you told me that whatever I give as long as i'm sincere you will like it kan? Fizah gave me a suggestion.She asked me to buy you boxer. What do you think about it? Hahaha? Size? S,M,L? I'm not gonna buy that ! it feels so weird man to buy your friend an underwear !! but when I think of it right, I should buy you Condoms or Sanitary pad. Is'nt that good enough? HAHA !! It would be a such a sad day to most of us as your leaving but on the other side we wouldn't lose to you. We will work hard to get good results too ! Just hope that everything goes well for what we have planned. Unless God, forbid. I would like to apologize to you if I ever hurt your feeling in such a way that being annoying or sarcastic over certain things. Sorry yea ! Take care !

Tuesday Plan
I'm having my chemistry practical at 8 am and it ends around 9.15am
Right after that I need to buy Ahem2 for Rahman
around 3.30pm, I have to skip my maths tuition. and go to pick yazid up at Kiulap
the rest of the plan = yazid's decision

Antah ey what wrong with my mind. Suddenly thinking of something and I feel like typing something saja saja...

when it comes to the topic friends. It's such a complicated things to talk. there's neither wrong or correct. Some how it's just our opinions. Everything takes time. Friends came and leave just like that through out our life time. To understand a person feelings, thoughts, behaviours and attitudes take time. "the longer the period the better" it's what I think most of you gonna say that. But somehow certain people being with someone for such a long period. They couldn't tell what their close one thinking about.

When you come to think of it. If something had happened splitted each one of us and leaving scars on most of us and I'm sure that no one wants this to happen right? But things always doesnt happen like what you have planned. Most of the time or should I say always? gonna be ruined because of something. usually because of too much judgement on someone. Until all the good side of a person covered by the bad things of he/she had done. apa kata pepatah telah menyatakan, " terlepas perahu dapat dibalikkan, terlepas kata nyawa jadi taruhan" but at the same time this also came into the line " terlepas perahu dapat di lajak, terlepas kata hati binasa"

when someone is hurt, it takes time for them to heal and when someone is angry of course they will said something really bad depending on how deep is their wound and the period of recovering and cooling takes time. When we come to think about it again. Someone has to make the first step. When one party had already stepped out the first step,Who's the one being ego? Who's the one refused to? Like Trish Thuy Trang song- Only time well tell. If problems have happened for such a long time, I'm sure that you could see that who's the one willing to forgive and who doesn't. who wanna be friends again and who doesn't. Body languages can tell.

Or maybe God wants it that way. It's really hard to tell the way it will be.only time will tell the way that it goes. we just never know the way it flows Whether we will see another day.Life is full of endless mysteries.But we have to be strong, stronger and have to learn, learn to let it goes.

Ey guys don't take too serious bout what I type above yah.. bout my thoughts.... im just boring and trying to express what's in my mind xD... take it easy....

I'd dream a simple dream but things arent what they seem when passions fade away the memories made us stayed.I still see how we use to be. Somewhere in time, our was fine, but then the months and days just kept passing by I still holding on to somewhere in time.

Guess what I found on the Net News... !! Funny muccch ..... Hahahaha